Tuesday, July 03, 2007

To the naysayers

Several commenters have tried to dissuade me from buying a new watch to cheer myself up after losing my other watch and (coincidentally and simultaneously) exhausting my prescription benefits -- just the latest manifestation of how my medical insurance conspires to screw me again and again. And again.

I'm starting to get annoyed. At those comments, not the insurance; I'm already pissed at the insurance, but there's nothing I can do about it.

What other options do I have to cheer myself up and garner a bit of pleasure? Get a massage? I'm not tense right now, and a massage would set me back about as much as a watch would anyway. Eat a box of Entenmann's? Oh, wait -- I gained 30 pounds doing that a few years ago, which I am still trying to lose. (Losing weight is another manifestly unpleasurable experience that I'm enduring right now.)

How about a few hours of glorious, unrestrained sex? Nope -- I'm still unmarried. I'm not allowed to have sex. I also don't have any children to comfort and entertain me, either. (Don't even THINK about telling me what a pain in the ass children can be. I am not in the mood to hear that.)

So buying a watch -- for less than $100 -- is not such a terrible option. I won't have to sell my body or my blood to swing it, or live on oatmeal and cat food for the rest of the month. I'm not hypomanic; if I were, I'd want to buy 6 watches for no reason at all, instead of one watch to replace the one I lost.

I need pleasure in life. And right now school, my internship, and my personal life are remarkably devoid of pleasure. Without pleasure, people get depressed. In my case, I could get seriously depressed. As in slit-my-throat depressed.

So I need some cheering up. Badly. This is part of the way I manage my moods. If I want to buy a new watch, I'm going to buy a goddamn watch. And comments from the normal-mood peanut gallery are not requested and not welcome.
Copyright (c) 2007 "Ayelet Survivor"


  1. buy the watch! (but maybe after tisha b'av?)

  2. Good compromise, M. I'll hold off until then.

  3. Well, I can take a hint. Apologies.

  4. Sorry, I'm with Carmen. Buy yourself a watch -- for under $50! I've been wearing a $20 Timex for 3+ years. You can buy an awful lot of costume jewelry or funky socks or even sushi for $100.

  5. Number one, I don't like costume jewelry; I prefer real jewelry. Partly because I have a nickel skin allergy, partly because I prefer real jewelry. Number two, I hate sushi. I'd rather spend $100 on a watch and forgo sushi and costume jewelry for the rest of my life.

  6. I'm happy to tell you that you really need a good prescription of Rabbi Nachman of Breslov!!!!

    He has the secret to all our depressions!