Monday, September 28, 2009

How was your fast, Ayelet?

Fasting isn't very difficult when you spend most of the day in bed. After my seizure -- the first but not last chagim-related trip to the ER -- I get to skip most other fast days and spend Yom Kippur at home. Which I primarily do in bed. I was kind of uncomfortable -- feverish, sore throat, swollen glands -- but I wasn't talking or walking around, so it was bearable.

Theoretically I could daven from the Yom Kippur machzor. Read over some of the highlights. But davening has never been one of my strong suits. So I spent the day either reading, dozing, or praying for my friends.

I didn't bother praying for myself. I decided long ago that my prayers for myself are neither heard nor heeded. But I did try to think of everyboy I know and care about who needs at least a few prayers. I didn't think Gd would be so vindictive as to curse the people I prayed for.

It was kind of difficult, because of course I didn't have my computer on, and I tend to keep track of my friends on the computer, either on Facebook or on my email contacts lists. But I think I remembered most of them. And I hope they get everything they need and much more than they deserve, because my friends are good people. They must be -- they put up with me.
Copyright (c) "Ayelet Survivor"


  1. I hope you feel better soon! If it is strep you will feel better very quickly after starting antibiotics. So try not to fret.

    I thought a lot about you today. I hope this is a wonderful year for you, in which you get all you deserve and then some!

    BTW I can relate to your struggles with prayer. There's a great essay on the topic in the intro to the new Koren siddur by British Chief Rabbi Sacks. Remind me to show it to you next time you visit. Riva

  2. Hi Ayelet,

    At Neilah each of the men passed before the open Aron Kodesh for a moment and I prayed for all of my friends who needed a refuah shlaima.

    I hope you feel better soon.


  3. reverse your belief about prayer and you! Belief is a constant prayer of the heart - ponder this and the mechanism - aaron

  4. Thanks so much, Riva and Rafi. I need all the prayers I can get!

  5. Honey, your prayers are heard. We just can't order up a good year with fries on the side. It comes as it comes. I hope it's a wonderful, beautiful, healthy, happy, productive year for you, in every way.


  6. I go to a synagogue, I say yahrzeit and I then leave. I did not fast this year, but I was quite aware of it being Yom Kippur. Thank G-D it's over, the guilt is slowly dissipating, can't wait till next year. More holidays are coming up, more guilt and then I'm free till passover.

    I wish there was a religion just for being Jewish, without all the guilt.